My experience to learning English as a second language

I moved to the United States from Bangladesh in 2015. After coming to USA, one day I got invited to my cousin’s birthday party, where she invited all of her friends and family. That was my first time, going to a party in USA , I was so excited for the party. the night before the party I took out all my dresses ,shoes and accessories from my closet and I was trying to find out the best dress for me. I tried so many outfits. I was also feeling shy to meet new people and I started to think how I will talk to other people, what I will say to them when I will first meet them, and whom I will talk. I was looking at the mirror and talking to myself and pretending I was talking to the other people.I had all mix of feeling before going to the party but I was also happy to think that it will be so much fun in the party. I had all different kind of thought in my head and I couldn’t able to sleep in that night.
Finally, the day of the party I woke up really early than usual. I got ready before everyone in my house and I couldn’t wait for going to the party. Finally I reached the party with my family. The whole house was full with 40-50 people and whole house was decorated with flowers and balloons. In the party all the young boys and girls who was in my age were together in a room and they all were doing fun there and all uncle, aunt and older people was in the living room. Then my aunt told my cousin to take me with them in the room where were all the kids and young people and told her to introduce me with everyone. I went with her and she introduced me with everyone and at first they seemed so nice and friendly. But, when I started to talk with them in English , they all started to laugh on me. At first I was confused , i didn’t know why they were laughing. Then they all started to copy the way I was talking and laughing more and more. Then I realized that they all were making fun of me due to my Bengali accent . This made me feel less worthy because I was in a room filled with people who were born and raised here and who were making fun of the way I spoke English. This made me want to leave the room and just be alone, to avoid feelings of discomfort. I couldn’t help but think that others were judging me and didn’t care about me because they seemed to giggle at my accent. Although this affected me, I tried not to show it in front of everyone, and in that moment, I just put on a fake smile to control my emotions. That was the worst day in my life.
After that party when I came home, I started to cry in my room and then my father came to me and was saying that what happened my dear. Then I told my father everything about the party and the way they made fun of me. And my father wiped my tears with love. Then he told me that it’s okay my dear ,I can understand you feeling. It’s not even a month that you came to USA and it’s normal not being able to speak perfectly in another language within very short time. Everybody faces a lot of challenges at the beginning but don’t worry as time passes you will get a lot better and show them that you can also speak the language as any other.That encouraged me to not give up and try my best.
After that I always thought about what my father said before going or doing something important and I never got left out. I also started improve my English by reading books, newspaper, watching TV, talking to other people in English. I also learned even more English after I admitted in school . And at the same time, I learned to accept who I am and where I am from, which allowed me to stand my ground and feel better about myself. I realized that I don’t need to feel shy about perfecting my english because if others were placed in my position, they would not be able to speak Bangle as well as I do, which is something I am really proud of. This motivated me to see the positive side of the situation I faced. Now that three years have passed, I feel happily adjusted and feel comfortable to speak in English with anyone.
Even though, it was difficult for me learn a new language but it wasn’t impossible. Now, I don’t feel shy or nervous anymore to speaking in english with anyone. Finally , I am happy that , able to learn a new language and now my english skill is so much better than before. That doesn’t mean I know everything in english, each and everyday I am still learning so many new things. Overall it was a good experience about learning a new language.

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